Chapter 70: Hungry
Although the lounge where Deng Xi was located was on the outer periphery of the top floor, not just anyone could enter the top floor of the military and political building.
Even if his subordinates came before Deng Xi, no one would dare to speak like that.
It only took Si Jisheng a moment to realize that Deng Xi had only told half the story. It was just that the sudden outburst of emotions had made Deng Xi’s complaint incoherent.
Because they were too close, the soft and sticky breath was on Si Jisheng’s neck, and his voice was also very muffled. “They also said a lot, but I don’t remember.”
“No hurry, take your time.” Si Jisheng slightly moved back. His cold, mechanical fingers lifted the warm little face that was buried in his shoulder. His lowered silver eyes glanced at the corners of Deng Xi’s eyes. After confirming that there were no overflowing tears and no red marks from wanting to cry, he said, “Sit properly first.”
Deng Xi obediently straightened up.
Si Jisheng took advantage of this gap to get up and get a clean new cup, and poured a cup of ice water.
The little merman was not used to drinking human hot water.
Deng Xi looked up at the little mute, leaned over, and took the sofa pillow that had been leaning against the other side of the man, and hugged it in his arms.
If he couldn’t hug him, then he couldn’t.
Deng Xi thought sullenly.
The sofa pillow was initially cool from the indoor air conditioning. After a while, it was warmed by Deng Xi’s embrace. It was not as comfortable as the silver-tail’s perpetually cold body temperature, but fortunately, because it had been leaned on by the little mute for a while, there was a faint, cold scent.
Deng Xi could smell it.
After his nose twitched, he felt that he was a little abnormal.
Although the merman species, who lived in the deep sea, had always been intolerant of heat, he had not reached the point where he could not stand a little bit of heat. But… Deng Xi glanced at the little mute again, a little conflicted. He didn’t know why, but it was just very comfortable to hug him.
Even compared to the human little mute, Deng Xi preferred to be close to the silver-tail who had transformed into a tail.
Especially the tough silver scales that were wet with seawater.
The glass of water was placed on the table, making a very light, crisp sound. Deng Xi suddenly came back to his senses, and the tips of his ears instantly became hot. He couldn’t help but bury his face in the pillow, only revealing a pair of clear blue eyes.
What was he thinking?
He couldn’t think about it anymore.
Si Jisheng bent down, and his mechanical finger sleeve forcefully extended into the gap between Deng Xi’s face and the sofa pillow. He lifted the youth’s chin with his fingertip. It wasn’t until the tip of his nose, which had been covered by the pillow, was exposed and fresh air could circulate in that he withdrew his hand.
Deng Xi had been inexplicably fiddled with.
He wouldn’t let him hug, and he wouldn’t let him hug this either. The little merman unhappily picked up the cup of water.
The ice water made the wall of the glass cup overflow with water droplets, and it was a bit cold to the touch, which slightly lowered the heat on Deng Xi’s body. But for some reason, he subconsciously compared this touch to the little mute.
Mmm, the little mute was still better to touch.
Si Jisheng sat down again and guided Deng Xi to fill in the information gap between them. “Who are they?”
Deng Xi was stunned for a moment, then honestly shook his head. “I don’t know.”
Si Jisheng changed the question. “Did they say it to you in person?”
Deng Xi shook his head.
Si Jisheng understood.
He reached out and pressed the comm on Deng Xi’s wrist. The blue screen instantly lit up in the air. “What did you see on the star network?”
Deng Xi followed the little mute’s questions and answered, bit by bit, “It was a video, a video of me singing. It was seen by many, many people.” He described it clumsily, “It was the day I first met Xiaoye and the others. A little friend suddenly got sick and turned into a little animal, so I wanted to see if my song was of any use.”
“Was it the one I heard?”
“Mmm-hmm!”
“Do you know who filmed it? And who posted it on the star network?”
“It was Sister Dr. Zhang.”
The little mute would ask a question, and Deng Xi would answer.
He was holding the ice water and had drunk more than half of it in a few sips. He had been thirsty just now, but because he was afraid of what the little mute would say, he hadn’t dared to drink much of the fruit juice.
Although in the end, the fruit juice was still confiscated.
By the time the cup was empty, Si Jisheng had figured out the whole story. Because Bunny had not sent that video to Deng Xi, he had also not been able to find it on the star network by searching for the keywords.
After sending a message to the secretary-general, Si Jisheng could only confirm the content of that video by imagination.
But the problem was not there.
Si Jisheng was very clear, but Deng Xi was still a little clueless.
He slowly explained the pros and cons in a way that Deng Xi could understand. “Those people who said they liked you, it was because you were originally good enough to attract them, whether it was your voice or your looks.”
“Do you know why those people would slander you?”
Deng Xi shook his head.
Si Jisheng’s voice was very cold, without any fluctuation, but from his tone, it seemed that he was very experienced and had studied it thoroughly. He recounted, “When there is a screen between them and they are not in the same space, humans can say some things more easily when they are not face to face.”
“But whether it’s good words or bad words, they are all venting their own emotions, especially the negative emotions that need to be vented even more.”
Deng Xi thought for a moment, and after a long time, he slowly made a summary. “So it’s not that I’m not good, it’s that they are bad.”
Si Jisheng nodded slightly.
Deng Xi was a little confused. “But humans are highly intelligent life forms. Why would they vent their bad emotions on strangers?”
“Only animals will, when they are angry, attack any creature around them without reason.”
Deng Xi made an analogy with the creatures of the natural world.
Si Jisheng paused for a moment. “Because some people are still underdeveloped, low-level animals.”
Deng Xi nodded, half-understanding.
Si Jisheng continued, “I can delete this video, and no one will ever see it again in the future. But I will not make this decision for you.”
Deng Xi pointed at himself. “I get to decide?”
Si Jisheng nodded with certainty.
Deng Xi said with some trouble, “But I don’t know, Little Mute, I don’t know.”
Si Jisheng had already considered everything in just a few minutes. If this video was kept, the public would follow the trend, and it would easily be linked to the hundred-billion auction that he had caused a while ago. They would know Deng Xi’s origin.
Deng Xi’s identity as a merman was indeed very special. He was not an alien, nor was he human. But Si Jisheng had never thought of hiding it. The feeling of hiding in a crowd was very unpleasant.
He hoped even more that Deng Xi could live freely in the human world, that he could show his merman’s fish tail without any scruples, and sing generously.
Moreover, the existence of the merman species had always been known to the high-level officials of the Empire. But because he was here, and he had brought Deng Xi back, no one dared to cast their eyes on the military’s territory.
There was only one thing he had to consider about the announcement of his merman identity, and that was Deng Xi’s overly special racial talent.
But it didn’t matter. He could control the development of the situation.
He only needed to know one thing, Deng Xi’s will.
Si Jisheng analyzed it for Deng Xi, ensuring that his words would not have any inducement. “If you don’t delete it, this video will be seen by more people. Many people will see you, know you, and talk about you.”
“Because humans don’t like aliens, the controversy you get will very likely be more than the affection.”
“But whether you delete it or not, it will have no impact on you. Besides the emotional value, it will not bring you anything more, and you will not suffer any substantial harm because of it.”
Deng Xi didn’t quite understand, but he understood a little. “As long as I want?”
Si Jisheng nodded slightly.
His and the little mute’s perspective were not the same. Deng Xi thought, the little mute was always considering him. And what Deng Xi thought of was, “But if we keep it, the other aliens who are sick like Bunny and Xiaoye can also hear it.”
Deng Xi put down his water cup, felt that he had said something wrong, and corrected himself, “Not like them.”
“Like Little Mute.”
Si Jisheng was slightly stunned.
Deng Xi hugged the pillow and sank into the sofa. His legs were swaying outside, unable to touch the ground. He looked up at the little mute beside him and said very seriously, “If, in the past, when Little Mute was living alone in the human world, if only the song I was singing in the ocean at that time could have been heard by Little Mute.”
That way, would the little mute not have to hide so hard? Would he have been able to live a little happier? Would there not have been so many people who disliked his little mute?
Would the bullying that the little mute had suffered also have been a little less?
Deng Xi hid the loneliness in his eyes. He curved his eyelids. “I want to keep it.”
“I want to keep every song I sing for Little Mute, and I also want Little Mute to be able to hear every song I sing in the future.”
It was for him, and only because of him.
Si Jisheng’s throat was choked. After a long while, he finally closed his eyes and replied in a low, hoarse voice, “Then we’ll keep it.”
The conch shell earring was indeed not quite enough.
Deng Xi put down the pillow, suddenly knelt up from the sofa, and extended his hand to the little mute beside him. But before he could touch him, because his knees had no strength, he couldn’t stabilize his body and fell forward.
Si Jisheng steadily caught Deng Xi and asked in a low voice, “What’s wrong?”
They always seemed to get close to each other again without realizing it. No matter how they restrained themselves, how they pushed each other away, they couldn’t stop the mingling of their breaths.
Deng Xi propped himself up on the little mute’s shoulders, looked down at the man who was looking up at him, and then extended his fingertips. He clumsily imitated the little mute’s action of wiping his tears and, bit by bit, smoothed the furrowed brow with the pad of his finger.
“Isn’t Little Mute happy?”
Si Jisheng let Deng Xi do as he pleased and denied, “No.”
Deng Xi said softly, “Then don’t frown, okay? I always think that Little Mute is unhappy.”
Si Jisheng said, word by word, “I am very happy.”
His handsome features, even after being smoothed, still showed no emotion, completely inconsistent with the words that came out of his thin lips. Only Deng Xi, who was so close to him, could see that there was indeed warmth in the silver eyes that were looking at him.
Deng Xi pursed his lips and smiled, revealing a beautiful, soft little dimple. Si Jisheng stared at it, unable to look away for a moment. His tone was restrained, with a certain kind of suppression. “Because I’m too happy, I need to suppress it.”
The clueless little merman tilted his head in confusion, not understanding why happiness also needed to be restrained. But the merman’s intuition made Deng Xi keenly aware that the little mute seemed to be very uncomfortable right now.
It was not an emotional discomfort.
It was because he was suppressing something. Under his indifferent silver eyes, there seemed to be many deep things that he didn’t understand.
It was very dangerous, as if it could devour him in the next second.
But Deng Xi, who had always followed the merman’s sixth sense, did not try to escape. He was not afraid at all. On the contrary, he moved even closer.
His weak knees made it impossible for Deng Xi to continue kneeling. He obediently found a comfortable position for himself, straddling the man’s lap in a duck-like sitting position, and hugged his neck affectionately, whispering a negotiation, “Then shall we go and eat a small cake?”
“Happy emotions should not be suppressed. They should be continued.” He was like a little adult, teaching others in return.
Eating sweets would make Deng Xi feel happy.
Si Jisheng closed his eyes with forbearance. His chest heaved slowly once, and he let out a breath of cold air. Then, he turned off the tactile nervous system on his mechanical finger sleeve and controlled his fingertips to probe into the gap between their embrace.
He pressed Deng Xi’s empty little stomach.
Through the cold finger sleeve, besides the feeling of his fingertips sinking slightly into the soft flesh, he couldn’t feel anything.
“Are you really hungry?”
He had only pressed once, but the pad of his finger, which should have been withdrawn, remained on top.
Deng Xi was so cold from the mechanical finger that he moved back. Just as he was about to separate, he stopped again. For some reason, he didn’t want to refuse the little mute’s touch.
“A little bit.”
Si Jisheng picked Deng Xi up, stood up, and walked out. “You can only eat one piece.”
He was indulging because he was also hungry.