After Becoming a Merman, I Became a Heartthrob 60

Chapter 60: Su Jinfeng’s Repentance

The midday sun in autumn was still dazzling, making it impossible to look at directly.

The light was divided into several rectangular grids by the window, falling on the floor of the private room in the restaurant.

Chi Xiasheng was sitting in a position where he could be bathed in this autumn sun. The sunlight dyed his hair golden, and his exquisite, fair face was completely enveloped in the light.

But no matter how warm the sun was, it couldn’t warm his heart. After hearing Su Chengjian’s words, he sat in his chair in a daze, not reacting for a long time.

It wasn’t just him. Everyone in the private room was extremely silent, their breathing so light it was almost imperceptible, immersed in their own thoughts and unable to escape.

It seemed as if a long time had passed in a daze. Wen Shu’s half-closed eyes reopened, and she looked at Su Chengjian.

“My child is not dead?”

When she asked this, her tone was filled with a hint of hope and trembling. She wanted to believe it, but she didn’t dare to, afraid that he was deceiving her again.

She had fallen for his trap once before, so this time her attitude was cautious, with a hint of suspicion.

Su Chengjian nodded heavily. “Wen Shu, I’m not lying to you. Mianmian is really your child. I personally carried him back from the hospital at that time. He would smile as soon as he was born. Our child has always been healthy and happy.”

Hearing him mention the past, Wen Shu closed her eyes to hide the sadness in them.

She had experienced the pain of losing a child and knew too well the grief and pain that came with it. At that time, she had even once hated the entire human race and had even escaped back to the sea.

Before, apart from the time of the demon beast war, she was a merman who extremely liked to live in the human world.

Her own parents were human, and she had grown up in the human world. Even though she was not of the same race, she still had an unusual love for the human world.

But the pain of losing a child that year had made her hide at the bottom of the sea for more than twenty years. If it weren’t for meeting Chi Xiasheng, she might have continued to hide.

Wen Shu’s hands were trembling, an uncontrollable tremor, just like when she had held the dying child in the hospital that day. Her whole body and mind were broken and helpless.

Once a merman had a child, their spiritual energy would begin to weaken. The baby would rapidly absorb all of the mother’s energy to ensure its own survival.

The probability of a merman having a miscarriage was extremely high. When Wen Shu was pregnant with Wen Nian, if it weren’t for the magic treasures and herbs she had saved before, he would not have come into this world.

Unfortunately, when she was pregnant with Su Chengjian’s child, she was on land. She had never thought she would be pregnant again, so even when her spiritual energy was almost drained by the baby at more than eight months pregnant, she could only grit her teeth and endure.

She had always thought that the child’s weak breath at birth was due to the merman’s constitution.

She drank two sips of water with trembling lips, then pulled her thoughts back and looked up at Su Chimian.

At this moment, his mind was also a blank. He didn’t know how to talk to her, and he even subconsciously avoided her gaze when she looked over.

Wen Shu looked at him. He was born very well-behaved, with round almond-shaped eyes and a fair, tender face that looked soft. He was a very likable person at first glance.

But looking at him, even though she was trying hard to accept that he was her long-lost child, she still had a strange feeling in her heart.

She couldn’t bring herself to love him as she loved Wen Nian.

Wen Shu sighed, covered her eyes with her slender fingers, and leaned back in her chair tiredly, quietly digesting this matter.

Su Chengjian knew that the fact that the child was not dead had a very significant meaning for her, so he did not disturb her and instead thoughtfully poured her a glass of warm water.

“Shu’er, Mianmian is a very well-behaved and considerate child, just like you were back then, kind and lovely.”

Hearing this, Mother Su’s eyes unconsciously revealed a hint of coldness.

Kind? Lovely?

As expected, in Su Chengjian’s heart, there has never been a place for me.

This woman, Wen Shu, doesn’t have to do anything. She just has to appear, and he will prepare everything for her.

It’s so ridiculous. Mother Su looked at the gentleness in his eyes, clenched her fists, and held back for a long time before she didn’t let out a cold laugh on the spot.

The private room fell silent again.

After a long time, Chi Xiasheng finally moved his fingers, stood up gently, and left.

This place was too suffocating for him. The air he breathed was dull and stagnant, and the heavy sense of oppression was about to crush him.

He went to the washroom and washed his face with cold water, which slightly relieved the dull and stuffy feeling.

He lifted his face and, seeing the wet, broken hair in the mirror, he let out a self-deprecating laugh.

It seems I don’t deserve to have anything.

I finally have a family I want to be close to, but in the end, this is the result.

Everything he had gotten was extremely difficult, so he had guarded it with caution, afraid that he would not cherish it enough and would shatter this beautiful relationship.

But Su Chimian was different. It seemed as if even the heavens were favoring him. Everything Chi Xiasheng had would eventually be his.

The Su family was like this before, and now Wen Shu was also like this.

But why? Chi Xiasheng’s eyes reddened. Why is it that every time I think that the road ahead is bright and beautiful, Su Chimian comes out and easily takes everything away?

“Xiaosheng.”

Another tall figure appeared in the mirror. He handed him a tissue.

Chi Xiasheng looked at Su Jinfeng’s face in the mirror, closed his eyes, and tried his best to answer calmly, “No need.”

Su Jinfeng had followed him out. Since last night, his mood had been extremely complicated.

No, it should be from the moment Chi Xiasheng had jumped into the sea. His mentality had been constantly tormented.

It was only just now, when he saw Chi Xiasheng’s reddened eyes, that he realized how incompetent he had been as an older brother.

He is my younger brother. This thought made his heart ache. He walked over and handed him the tissue.

“You… don’t be too sad. If you want, I can…”

“No need. I never like to look back, and I don’t like to pick up trash and use it.”

Chi Xiasheng’s personality was very stubborn. Even though Su Chengjian’s words meant that he and Su Jinfeng were biological brothers, he still didn’t have a good face for him.

Some things could not be saved with just a few words of comfort.

Su Jinfeng also knew that the relationship between the two of them had long since been shattered. The thin brotherly affection was almost impossible to pick up.

Especially since Chi Xiasheng had a stubborn personality.

Su Jinfeng sighed. “Xiaosheng, I’m very sorry for what I did before. I will try my best to make it up to you. I don’t want you to be hurt anymore.”

It could be said that in this incident, the one who was hurt the most was still Chi Xiasheng.

After experiencing so much, Su Jinfeng also seemed to have matured in an instant and also wanted to open his arms to protect this younger brother of his.

Hearing this, Chi Xiasheng couldn’t help but laugh. He propped his hands on the sink, his broken hair wet, his eyes full of mockery.

“Su Jinfeng, you’re really ridiculous. Weren’t you very happy to threaten me before? What, have you found your conscience now? Or do you feel sorry for me looking like this? But I’m telling you, even if I one day fall to the point of being abandoned by everyone and have to beg for food, I don’t need you to care!”

Su Jinfeng looked at the sarcasm in his eyes and, listening to his harsh words, he didn’t feel very angry. Instead, his heart ached with a dense pain.

What he had done before had already become an insurmountable gap between the two of them.

Chi Xiasheng was this kind of person. He loved and hated clearly. He would never pick up the feelings he had abandoned!

Realizing this, Su Jinfeng felt his breathing become heavy and difficult.

In fact, when Chi Xiasheng had just returned, he had also thought about being a good older brother, but in the end, he had gradually pushed him further and further away under the contrast with Su Chimian.

He smiled self-deprecatingly and placed the tissue next to his hand. “I’m sorry. I’ll leave first. You should calm down first. I will do my best to make it up to you and let you see my determination.”

Chi Xiasheng looked at his departing figure in the mirror and thought to himself, This person is really a masochist.

In the past, he had carefully hoped that this older brother would look at him a few more times, but he had only been ignored by him.

Now that he wanted to kick him to death, he was sticking to him.

As expected, only when you lose something do you regret it and want to cherish it.

He looked at the packet of tissues by the sink and mercilessly threw it into the trash can below, then washed his hands and left.

After he returned, the waiter also began to serve the dishes.

The exquisite dishes filled a table, but no one present was in the mood to taste them.

Under Su Chengjian’s hint, Su Chimian opened his mouth and finally called Wen Shu “Mom” in a small voice.

Hearing this, she frowned unconsciously, not feeling happy at all. In fact, her heart was blocked.

She waved her hand. “Don’t call me that yet. I need to think about it. Su Chengjian is used to deceiving people. I don’t want to raise someone else’s son for no reason.”

Hearing this, he was taken aback and wanted to open his mouth to explain something, but she clearly did not give him the chance and directly stood up.

“I have something to do at home. I’ll be leaving first.”

He also quickly stood up to chase after her, and the private room was instantly half empty.

Seeing her leave, Su Chimian was actually unconsciously relieved. His gaze turned to the just-returned Su Jinfeng.

“Brother, where did you go just now?”

If he had not been mistaken, his gaze had been almost entirely on Chi Xiasheng.

Su Jinfeng frowned. “That has nothing to do with you.”

His tone was cold and without any fluctuation, which made Su Chimian’s heart skip a beat.

Su Jinfeng had never spoken to him like this before.

“Little Jin, how are you talking to your younger brother?”

Mother Su was the first to speak. She had of course noticed that something was wrong with him, but there had been too many things happening recently, so she had neglected him. When she looked back, he had become distant from Mianmian.

He also sighed and stood up. “Mom, I don’t know what you’re thinking, but isn’t Xiaosheng also your child? He wasn’t chosen by Dad and us when he was kidnapped. After we escaped from death, we still watched him coldly. I don’t understand, and I don’t want to be like this anymore.

“I’m his older brother. I’ve watched him die once. The feeling of being powerless was enough for that one time. Now I just want to make it up to him.”

Since that kidnapping, he had become more silent.

He was filled with self-blame in his heart, hating his own powerlessness and also hating the harm he had once caused to Chi Xiasheng.

Although he didn’t want to admit it, the fact was that he had indeed done many wrong things.

And it was only today that he dared to face his past mistakes and childishness and face all of this with an open mind.

“I’m sorry. I still have something to do at the company. I can’t have this meal with you.”

His attitude towards his mother and father was no longer as respectful as before. At least in the matter of Chi Xiasheng, he really couldn’t understand their coldness.

Seeing her eldest son get up and leave, Mother Su slammed the cup down fiercely.

How could she have given birth to such an indecisive and unreasonable son?!

Su Chimian looked back at her, and her mood calmed down a little.

“It’s fine. Your brother is your brother, after all. Don’t worry, he’ll understand.”

Su Chimian was very panicked now. Logically, after knowing that she was not his biological mother, he shouldn’t be so dependent on her.

But years of affection were not so easily discarded. He couldn’t help but lower his eyes and say “hmm.”

“It’s fine. That child, Jinfeng, has a soft heart. He’s always felt guilty about Chi Xiasheng falling into the sea. Now he’s just worried about him because he looks pitiful. Your years of brotherhood won’t be broken just like that.”

She rubbed his head. “Don’t worry, I’m here.”

Hearing this, his mood gradually relaxed.