Chapter 70: Grudges, Longing
The phone was hung up by Chen Shuo.
Li Ge was much more relaxed this time. He lay on the bed, opened the TV, and randomly chose a movie to play, not really watching it, but holding his phone and sending a text message to his cousin.
The text message read: [Brother, it’s urgent!]
Ten minutes later, He Yan’s text message arrived.
He Yan: [What time is it? You’re asking for a scolding.]
It wasn’t even nine o’clock, which was still early for Li Ge. Usually at this time, he and Chen Shuo hadn’t even started their fun yet. At most, they would have showered together, Chen Shuo would have washed his underwear and socks by hand in the bathroom, and he himself would be doing “one lift, one release” training for his backdoor in front of the bed.
Tonight could have started earlier. In Li Ge’s imagination, it was a night full of passion and romance, but not to mention finding excitement on the balcony, he was lucky not to have been angered to death.
The test was successful. He immediately sent a text message back to He Yan.
[Chen Shuo is ignoring me, he brought back several scriptures and is even hand-copying them. Has he become a monk? Has he mentioned resigning to you? I’m so anxious right now, give me some advice.]
Three minutes later, another text message from He Yan arrived.
He Yan: [I don’t know, he didn’t mention it, I have no advice, don’t reply.]
Chen Shuo hadn’t mentioned resigning, which was barely good news. Li Ge threw down his phone, speechless, and thought about how to pry open the quiet one’s mouth. The sound of running water in the bathroom happened to stop.
He quickly rushed over and knocked on the door, “Wife, quick! I have to pee, I can’t hold it in anymore!”
There was no response from inside.
“Ouch, I really have to pee!” Li Ge knocked several more times, “I’m about to burst. If you don’t let me in, I’ll have to pee in the kitchen sink.”
“Click—” The bathroom door opened.
Seeing Chen Shuo dressed in black again, a vest and casual long pants, completely covered up, not letting him see anything, washing his underwear at the sink.
Li Ge was angry in his heart. He suppressed the urge to strip Chen Shuo naked and, like a normal person, went to grab the underwear from Chen Shuo’s hand, chuckling, “Wife, let me help you wash it.”
“No need, you go back.” But the underwear was held tightly by Li Ge, and he wouldn’t let go. Chen Shuo frowned, “Let go.”
“Just let me wash it, don’t be shy.” Li Ge tried to awaken his wife’s love for him, “You used to wash my underwear and socks for me every day, and iron my shirts and trousers, and even polish my leather shoes. I want to help you too.”
Chen Shuo: “Let go.”
Li Ge: “I really want to help you wash it, are you shy? I’ve even eaten your underwear, what’s the big deal? Be good, husband will help you wash it.”
Chen Shuo: “Don’t you understand human language?”
“I don’t,” Li Ge said, able to be both yielding and unyielding, “You just said I was a dog, I only know that I have to wash my wife’s underwear.”
Chen Shuo: “…”
And so, the two big men squeezed into the bathroom, fighting over a pair of underwear, competing with each other.
Li Ge knew very well how strong Chen Shuo was. He could tell from the instantly tensed biceps that Chen Shuo was being serious with him. And it was with that pair of strong and powerful arms that Chen Shuo could lift him up and fuck him for a long time every time. A few times, he had even made him lose control, and his body was in such a state. Afterwards, he had promised to take care of him until he was old, but he hadn’t even gotten old yet, and he was already being ignored.
A heartless white-eyed wolf, how dare he call him a dog.
“You’re just being a coward with me.” Li Ge stopped fighting and simply stood to the side, his tone softening as he asked Chen Shuo, “How long are you going to be stubborn? Can you say what’s on your mind? Only then can we solve the problem.”
Chen Shuo didn’t respond, concentrating on washing his underwear.
The hard approach didn’t work, and the soft approach was also ineffective. Li Ge was really getting anxious. He simply went back to the room, took his phone, turned on the video recording function, and returned to the bathroom, filming Chen Shuo and explaining the situation in real time, “This video only records the grudges between me and my wife. Look clearly, it’s this man washing his underwear. His surname is Chen, his name is Shuo, he’s my wife, a faithless scumbag.”
“…” Chen Shuo turned off the faucet and looked away, “Don’t film randomly.”
“Look, he’s scared, he still has a sense of shame.” Worried that Chen Shuo would go crazy and snatch his phone, Li Ge retreated to the bathroom door, warily continuing, “Let’s talk about how much of a scumbag he is. He raped me the first time, I was in pain for several days and nights and even had a fever. I was the bigger person and was willing to be with him.”
Chen Shuo: “I said don’t film randomly.”
Seeing Chen Shuo’s cold and indifferent expression, as if he was about to snatch his phone, he was finally not a robot anymore.
Li Ge then put away his phone and dodged Chen Shuo. When Chen Shuo went to the balcony to hang his underwear, he raised it again and filmed him, “Let’s continue. He played with my feelings, he was with me just to fuck me. I thought he really liked me, fuck, he wrote such sentimental things to make me feel sorry for him, it turns out he learned it from the internet, so hypocritical.”
“…” Chen Shuo’s movements of hanging his underwear froze. He quickly hung them up and turned his back to Li Ge, stopping him, “If you film again, I’ll hit you.”
“The scumbag is going to hit me again, so fucking heartless!” Li Ge complained, “How much have I suffered for him, how much pain have I endured? I’ve been tormented by him so many times that I’ve lost control of my bladder, I do pelvic floor exercises every day, and I’ve been beaten half to death by him, my body is almost ruined. He said he would take care of me until I’m old, but how long has it been? I’m not even thirty yet, and he’s not responsible anymore, a white-eyed wolf!”
“…” Chen Shuo looked out at the night sky, hearing Li Ge’s voice getting closer and closer.
“He’s silent, which means he’s guilty, he has no face to refute me.” Li Ge, being the bigger person, “Wife, come and kiss me now, I won’t hold anything against you, and you don’t have to formally apologize to me.”
No one answered.
“Alright, my wife is playing deaf with me again, I’ll stop recording here for today.”
It was no fun to sing a one-man show. Chen Shuo’s silence made Li Ge unhappy, so he turned off the recording and put away his phone. Seeing the fish tank, he remembered that he had forgotten to feed them tonight.
He quickly took out the fish food from the storage cabinet and fed the “children” two spoonfuls. Seeing the little Rhodeus fish gather and fight over the food, he sighed at the fish tank, “Sigh, so pitiful, in this world, only I care about you, do you know that your father is a scumbag? He didn’t even think of feeding you when he came back.”
Chen Shuo: “…”
After feeding the fish, Li Ge turned around and saw that Chen Shuo had turned off the TV with the remote control, then went to the kitchen to wash his hands, and then ignored him and sat at the desk, turned on the desk lamp, prepared his pen and calligraphy copybook, and sat there motionless.
He: “…”
The air suddenly became quiet, which made Li Ge at a loss, his head aching so much that he didn’t know what to do. Although he wasn’t interested, he knew a little about it. Copying scriptures wasn’t something to be done casually, there was a preparation process, and strictly speaking, he should even burn a stick of incense.
And at this time, it was inappropriate for him to disturb Chen Shuo.
Chen Shuo’s phone was on the desk lamp. Li Ge went back to the sofa and sat down, thinking that he would have a good talk with Chen Shuo after he finished copying the scriptures, and he himself would also calm down.
The pen glided across the paper, making a “rustling” sound, like the autumn wind sweeping through fallen leaves.
Li Ge was originally browsing financial news, but he unexpectedly calmed down and looked up at the desk. Chen Shuo was sitting quietly at the desk with his back to him, his head lowered, his right hand holding a pen and writing steadily on the calligraphy copybook, making a faint, continuous “rustling” sound.
His gaze fell on the tall and firm back, and he couldn’t help but fall into deep thought. Why was he so fond of chasing after Chen Shuo’s cold ass?
When Chen Shuo gave him a cold look, he would be unhappy, wanting to kiss and hug him and have a go, willingly smiling and coaxing him. He wasn’t really angry for long, just wanting to make up quickly, even if Chen Shuo called him by a nickname he didn’t like, it was better than a formal and polite “Mr. Li.”
If it were anyone else, he would have fucking kicked them away, who would dare to give him a cold look?
It was the first time he had been with Chen Shuo like this, not disturbing each other, with no communication, no intimacy. Li Ge didn’t feel annoyed, but on the contrary, he slowly became comfortable.
He asked himself in his heart, what did he want to do most now?
The answer—to peel open Chen Shuo’s secretly horny heart and make him say he liked him in front of him.
But when Chen Shuo finished copying the scriptures, he actually started chanting them, and he was even chanting with his eyes closed, his voice very soft, exceptionally focused, as if he was completely immersed in the Buddhist teachings.
Fuck, he had memorized it so well?
Li Ge was not comfortable at this moment, unable to hold back, he quietly approached the desk, wanting to kiss his wife’s mouth, he hadn’t kissed him for dozens of days, he missed it so much.
To be precise, he wanted to block it, so he wouldn’t fucking chant anymore, it was like the Monkey King chanting the tightening-crown spell, giving him a headache. Hurry up and return to secular life and fuck him, roll around with him in the mortal world.
As soon as Li Ge got close, he heard the scriptures Chen Shuo was chanting clearly.
“Form is not different from emptiness, emptiness is not different from form; form is emptiness, emptiness is form; feelings, perceptions, impulses, and consciousness are also like this…”
“…” At this moment, Li Ge was no longer just admiring Chen Shuo.
He stood behind Chen Shuo and listened secretly. The scripture wasn’t long, and Chen Shuo was chanting it in a loop. He had heard “form is emptiness, emptiness is form” three times.
Alright, that dog was amazing, he still didn’t believe it.
Li Ge didn’t believe that everything in the world was illusory. His feelings were real, and the Chen Shuo in front of him was real, a living person of flesh and blood.
He quietly returned to the wardrobe, opened it gently, occasionally looking back to confirm the situation. The monk was still there, chanting the scriptures with a single-minded focus, quite humorous. He took out the see-through, open-crotch black stockings he had bought a few days ago. Li Ge was a bit angry. The morning Chen Shuo left, he had thrown away all his thongs, not a single one left, it was too much!
Taking off his trousers almost exhausted all of Li Ge’s patience. He was as careful as a thief, and after putting them on, they were a bit tight on his thighs, not very comfortable. He was too lazy to take off his shirt, but the half-covered look was even more sexy.
He couldn’t calm down at all. Chen Shuo mechanically repeated the Heart Sutra he chanted every night. As long as he chanted it fifty times, he could barely fall asleep.
But tonight, it seemed that chanting it five hundred times wouldn’t work. This made him fall into pain, perhaps he shouldn’t have come back. He advised himself to chant it two more times, and after he was done, he would have a good talk with Li Ge.
The taste of being a thief was not good. This time, Li Ge walked behind Chen Shuo, grabbed the back of the chair, and with a violent pull, dragged Chen Shuo and the chair back half a meter, not caring if the floor was scratched. He then straddled Chen Shuo’s lap, cupped his head, and was about to kiss him hard when Chen Shuo quickly covered his mouth with his hand. He missed and kissed the hard back of his hand.
“Get down.” Chen Shuo said, covering his mouth.
Having been embarrassed, Li Ge wasn’t unhappy. He kissed Chen Shuo’s forehead instead, and after a successful kiss, he chuckled, “Take your hand away and let me kiss your mouth, and I’ll get down, a gentleman’s word is his bond.”
Chen Shuo still covered his mouth, obviously not cooperating. He raised his other hand to push Li Ge away, but was caught by Li Ge first, who took his hand and pressed it down.
His palm touched a subtle unevenness, a fine mesh intertwined. Thinking of what terrifying thing that would ruin his dao heart it was, he instantly pulled his hand back as if he had touched a hot potato, not daring to look down.
Li Ge was amused by Chen Shuo’s ghost-like reaction and teased, “Have you really become a monk? Don’t you want to see? It’s a surprise to welcome you home.”
Chen Shuo urgently regained his composure and pushed Li Ge back with one hand, his gaze calm as he looked at him, and he asked calmly, “Do you want me to fuck you?”
Li Ge of course wanted to, but the dog sometimes didn’t play by the rules. Seeing this dead look, he guessed it wasn’t that simple.
So he didn’t say he wanted to, nor did he say he didn’t. He first put a big hat on Chen Shuo and started ranting, “Don’t you want to fuck me? You were so nervous just now, what are you pretending for? Who am I doing all this for? I’m a fucking pure man, I’m wearing this damn thing just to seduce you, right? Why do I want to seduce you? Because only when we’re doing it do I feel you’re different. I want to have a good talk with you, do you give me a chance? What do you want me to do?!”
After a brief silence, Chen Shuo said, “I’ll talk to you, you get down first.”
“Are you afraid of me?” Li Ge scoffed, “I’m fucking sitting here and not leaving, if you have something to say, just say it, can you be a man and be more straightforward? I really want to beat you up when I see you like this.” After speaking, he glared at Chen Shuo and added, “But I can’t bear to. You say you like me, and this is how you treat me.”
Seeing the grievance flash in Li Ge’s eyes, Chen Shuo silently met his gaze. Li Ge didn’t speak again, just kept looking at him. It wasn’t until a long time later that he finally spoke, asking Li Ge, “Do you want to be with me?”
“What nonsense!” Li Ge let out his emotions, “If I didn’t want to, would I be waiting for you here for fifty-two days?”
Chen Shuo asked again, “Do you want to, or not?”
Li Ge nodded, “I do.”
Hearing the definite answer, Chen Shuo knew that all his efforts for the past fifty-two days had been in vain. This painful practice couldn’t make him let go of Li Ge.
He slowly raised his hand and carefully stroked the face he had been thinking about day and night with his palm. It was his little treasure, his little treasure had been waiting for him.
He thought he wouldn’t.
“Xiao Bao’er,” Chen Shuo called out softly, “come out for me.”
Li Ge was stunned.
Chen Shuo rubbed Li Ge’s head, his tone much gentler, “Take me home to meet your parents.”
Li Ge: “…”
