Chapter 38: How can I see people when you’ve made me like this?
Yan Jingyu vaguely understood Liao Chen’s humiliation that day.
He remembered the other’s moist and resentful eyes—
In the gap just after being forcefully kissed by Liao Chen, he suddenly felt like laughing. But his heart still held a trace of the grievance of being bullied by the other. He subconsciously pressed his lips hard against his teeth, and his expression suddenly became very strange.
Liao Chen looked at him with a strange gaze. Yan Jingyu’s face twitched a few times. He subconsciously turned his face away, but was directly turned back by his large palm. The man’s voice was gloomy. “Do you think I’m very ridiculous?”
“…” Yan Jingyu tried his best to suppress the twitching corners of his mouth, shaking his head vigorously, but the tears in his eyes were getting more and more.
Liao Chen glared at him and gritted his teeth. “Yan Jingyu, do you believe I’ll—”
“Pfft, no, I said, pfft, cough, cough, cough, cough, I said I was wrong!!!”
“Why are you laughing?!!!”
What other reason could there be…
Back then, when he and Liao Chen fought over the Endless Sea, both of them were lying on the ground, unable to even climb up, not only because of the severe injuries of a shattered core and a pierced spiritual abode, but also because of the exhaustion after trying their best to subdue the other.
But when one person started to move, the other immediately started to move as well. They lay on the ground, their arms unable to support them, their faces and mouths full of yellow sand, but in the eyes they stared at each other with, there was still a deep-seated obsession.
Yan Jingyu himself was a person who loved to slack off. He was easily focused when doing things, but it was difficult for him to study one thing for a long time. If Liao Chen hadn’t moved at all, he would have just lain there motionless. But for every inch Liao Chen crawled towards the sword, he would grit his teeth and crawl two inches. Even if they were both lying on the ground, they had to hold their heads high and face each other with their nostrils.
Liao Chen was even more outrageous. If he crawled two inches, he would have to crawl a foot forward. If Yan Jingyu crawled a foot, he could even stand up shakily, until he fell down again with a thud in Yan Jingyu’s disbelieving gaze.
Was Yan Jingyu miserable? Of course he was miserable, because he didn’t even have the strength to stand up with gritted teeth.
But this did not prevent him from laughing so hard he punched the ground when he faced Liao Chen falling down again.
Yes, he couldn’t crawl, but he could still laugh until his stomach hurt, and he could still punch the ground with his fist.
Although he couldn’t laugh for more than two sounds before he was panting on the ground, his eyes too weak to even open.
In his whole life, he hadn’t targeted anyone much, but with Liao Chen, he would rather lose a thousand to injure him by eight hundred, to see his face smash into the mud, to see him flustered and exasperated. Life, after all, had its beautiful scenery at both high and low points, endless to enjoy.
“Yan, Jing, Yu—” Liao Chen’s anger made his eyes turn red. He suddenly reached out to tear his mouth. “You waste, your soul-lamp is about to be extinguished, you can’t even draw in spiritual energy, and you still dare to laugh at me!!!”
“Ah, wa, wa, woooo…” Yan Jingyu grabbed his arm. Of course, Liao Chen couldn’t really tear him apart. He was just so angry that he kept rubbing his face and shaking his head, shaking him until his vision went black and he saw stars, and he couldn’t laugh anymore.
In the end, it was because Liao Chen was too stubborn and cared too much about his face, while Yan Jingyu had realized early on that if he wanted to kill Liao Chen, he couldn’t care about his face. After all, although this fellow had nothing, he was rarely matched in his diligence, and his willpower was firm, his endurance excellent.
Logically speaking, Yan Jingyu was well-rounded, and his comprehensive strength was definitely stronger than Liao Chen’s. But unfortunately, he didn’t have Liao Chen’s ruthless drive to fight to the death at any moment. When he was in a crushing situation, he could be said to be at ease and could still maintain a little bit of grace. But against an opponent like Liao Chen, who was his equal and whose willpower was hundreds of times more ruthless than his, it was inevitable that he would appear clumsy.
Yan Jingyu never thought he was weaker than Liao Chen, but he was actually very afraid of a direct confrontation with Liao Chen.
Liao Chen said he was insulted by Chi Yuan and looked down upon by the demonic race. But he didn’t know that when Yan Jingyu realized his skills were inferior, he had also broken down many times at night.
He had never been frustrated by anyone in his life, but Liao Chen alone made him feel exceptionally incompetent.
He could clearly advance just by eating and drinking. He always thought that the next time they met, he would definitely surpass Liao Chen, laugh triumphantly in front of him, and then cut off his head with a single stroke of his sword, becoming famous in one battle, and completely forgetting Liao Chen’s name.
But every time they met, he would find that Liao Chen was one step ahead of him.
He had also been afraid. When he realized that he had to fight him to the death again, he had also fled in a panic.
He had bitten his lips until they bled in the middle of the night because his cultivation had been slow to break through. He thought of Liao Chen’s progress and sobbed alone with red eyes.
He thought, how could there be a person like Liao Chen in this world… on what grounds could he stand side by side with me, on what grounds could he be my arch-nemesis? Is he really my lifelong nightmare, am I really going to be trapped in his nightmare forever like this?
That night, a gentle hand stroked his head.
His mother, Du Qiyun, sat beside him, patiently listening to his anger, his unwillingness, and the inferiority complex he could not speak of to outsiders.
It wasn’t that he didn’t care that the people of the Demon Realm said he was a lowlife. It wasn’t that he was really so thick-skinned when he first entered the world, that he could see everything so clearly.
He could also so easily convince himself when he told everyone that it was not shameful to use tricks to kill demonic cultivators.
His heart would still want to fight Liao Chen to the death fair and square.
But he would be afraid. He felt that his courage was getting smaller and smaller. When he first went down the mountain, he had faced Liao Chen without any warning and had broken through without any warning. He had pointed at Liao Chen’s nose and said thank you with great triumph outside, but he always felt that it was just luck.
The fear of his life hanging by a thread, of the coldness on his neck, only he himself knew.
His mother listened to everything he said and gently wrapped her arms around his shoulders. “My son and Liao Chen are perhaps truly born enemies.”
“Is he worthy?!” Yan Jingyu’s eyes widened. His face was stroked by his mother’s gentle fingers. Du Qiyun scraped his nose. “What’s there to be worthy or not? He is also a person, and you are also a person. Why can’t he be your opponent?”
“I hate him. I must kill him!”
When he went down the mountain, he wanted to kill Liao Chen for the sake of his Dao. But gradually, in a place only he himself knew, these things had quietly changed their flavor.
Liao Chen was an obstacle in his Dao heart. He had to get rid of the other. If he wanted to ascend to immortality, he had to eradicate him from his heart. At that time, he knew this very clearly.
“You feel ashamed that you can’t face him directly. But do you know why he never plays tricks on you? Is it really because he is more righteous than you?”
Yan Jingyu thought for a moment and said, sniffing, “Isn’t it?”
“The reason he wants to have a fair and square duel with you is precisely because he is constrained by you in other places. He knows very well that only by facing you directly can he possibly completely defeat you. If you are obsessed with this, aren’t you letting him have his way?”
Yan Jingyu seemed to understand, but not quite. His mother continued to persuade him gently, “And besides, our A-Yu, who doesn’t he play little tricks on? Why is it that with him, you start to feel that you’ve gone too far? Don’t you also like to play tricks on the little junior brothers in the sect?”
“You and Liao Chen are not the same kind of people, but you both have your own pride. But Liao Chen’s pride is in confrontation. His sword points to the vast sea, and he will fight any enemy he meets. Only in this way can he feel that he is alive and accumulating his own strength. And our A-Yu’s pride…” Her finger gently tapped his heart. “…is here.”
“You have divine talent and your brilliance is contained within. There is no need to hide your skills, nor to deliberately show them off. You stand there, and you have already obtained everything.”
“You are elegant and graceful, he is brave and sharp. You have a gentle heart and wisdom, he has a restless spirit and wild arrogance…” His mother laughed as she spoke. Receiving his gaze, she continued, “You are afraid of him, but why wouldn’t he be afraid of you?”
They each had their own Dao, and they both knew what the other was most afraid of. Therefore, when Liao Chen mocked him, he would always say he was a waste. And every time Yan Jingyu got the chance, he would always laugh back fiercely. He was free-spirited and often didn’t care about his own situation. But Liao Chen was different. He didn’t allow himself to fall. Otherwise, before others could say anything, he would have already had a major breakdown. Therefore, every time he fell, Yan Jingyu found it particularly funny.
When Yan Jingyu woke up, his face was still hurting. He covered his face and took out a small mirror to look. The bruises on his cheeks were still there. He moved his mouth and felt that it seemed to have been pulled a little loose…
He probably really didn’t know what to do with him. Liao Chen, in his exasperation, had actually shaken him until he fainted.
“Really, such a big temper, haha, hiss…” Yan Jingyu covered his face. He knew that he had deliberately not applied medicine to himself. Even though his face was not convenient, he still smiled for a while with his eyes curved.
It was just passing him a poison. Why is he so unable to let it go? You’d think he was a little virgin bird…
Hmm, although, although it was also my first time, but could Liao Chen also be…?”
Well, it’s not impossible. I was also responsible for what happened in Jiuyi Mountain last time. It’s better not to mention this matter again. If we really argue, I can only attack Liao Chen’s conscience. How many consciences can a demonic cultivator have?
“Awake?!”
A voice came from outside. The anger was still audible. Yan Jingyu pouted. “What.”
“Eat your meal and go out to see people.”
“See who…”
“Didn’t I say I found an immortal physician to examine you?”
His tone was full of impatience. Yan Jingyu was annoyed by his tone for a moment, but it was offset by the content of his words. “I said it was unnecessary.”
“Hurry up!”
Yan Jingyu had no choice but to climb out. “How can I see people when you’ve made my face like this!”
“Serves you right.” Liao Chen said coldly, “Anyway, it’s not like you haven’t been embarrassed for a day or two.”
“I’m not going.”
Just as he shrank back, a scorched hole appeared in the bed. Before he could dodge, a hand reached out from inside and directly grabbed him out. Liao Chen stared at him sinisterly. “Don’t make me say it a second time.”
Yan Jingyu’s face was a mix of green and purple, like an abused flower cat. His eyes cowered for a moment, then he suddenly became a little curious. “Then what if I have to say it a second time? What will you do?”
“…” Liao Chen roughly hooked his waist, his face suddenly approaching. Yan Jingyu stared at him without moving. The two were at a stalemate for a moment. Yan Jingyu suddenly smiled again. “Are you going to kiss me, as a punishment?”
“…” Liao Chen’s lips pursed slightly, and his brow also twitched imperceptibly. “Do you think I don’t dare?”
“You dare.” Yan Jingyu, thinking of his expression of having eaten a fly yesterday, said deliberately, “I even dared to pass the silent poison to you. How can I be afraid of you kissing me? I was the one who started this.”
Speaking of this, he raised a triumphant expression again.
Liao Chen stared at him for a while, then slowly smiled, tightening his arms again. Yan Jingyu had to press his hands against his chest, but was still forced to close the distance between them. Liao Chen looked down at him. “That’s right. You were indeed the one who started this. Of course you’re not afraid…”
As he spoke, he let his hand slide down along his waistline. “You’re provoking me like this. Do you want me to kiss you?”
Yan Jingyu struggled for a moment. “What, if I want you to, you’ll come? Suddenly so obedient? Are you a dog?”
“It doesn’t matter if I’m a dog or not.” Liao Chen’s large palm grabbed a handful of him under him and lifted it up, looking at his contracted pupils. “The important thing is, how many times can you endure…”
Yan Jingyu’s lips were suddenly kissed again. He shrank his neck, caught off guard, and his clavicle sank deep.
No way, did this fellow secretly go to Yu Qiuye to have his face filled last night… How come suddenly…
“Mmm.” Yan Jingyu reached out to push his shoulder. Liao Chen’s lips briefly separated from his, seemed to laugh, and then pressed against him again. This kiss was wanton, and his hands were also restless. Yan Jingyu forcefully puckered his mouth, his brow also wrinkling several times, but Liao Chen still did not end it.
Their breaths mingled. Yan Jingyu finally spoke when he pulled away a gap again. “I’m go—mmm… go…”
Liao Chen pressed him onto the jade bed, their long hair scattered on both sides. Yan Jingyu’s eyes were wide, his mouth already red and swollen, even the corners of his mouth had red marks from being bitten by his teeth.
Liao Chen gazed at him, as if to confirm. “Go…?”
“…Go.”
Yan Jingyu pouted, looking like a bullied child.
Liao Chen stared at him with a faint smile for a while, then sat up straight, teleported out first, and said, “Hurry up.”
