The Scum Gong’s Redemption Manual (Quick Transmigration) 43

Chapter 43

Lu Ze’s heart suddenly softened. He lowered his head and rubbed his forehead, his movements filled with a lingering cherish.

“Baby…” he sighed, holding him tightly in his arms, his chin resting on his shoulder, and said, “Homosexuality is not a disease.”

Xu Qingyan was kneeling on Lu Ze, feeling the intimate closeness between them. Hearing this, his eyelashes couldn’t help but tremble.

Lu Ze’s large hand slowly slid down his back, a very gentle and reassuring gesture. “Who you fall in love with, and how you fall in love, is our own business. It won’t have any impact on others or on society.”

“Now they think it’s a disease because they don’t understand it. Trust me, in another ten or twenty years, people will think it’s a very normal kind of love, not pathological, not a crime.”

He held him a little tighter in his arms and whispered in his ear, “So don’t say that kind of thing anymore in the future.”

“It hurts my heart.”

Xu Qingyan’s hands were hanging by his sides. Hearing this, he couldn’t help but slowly raise his hands and grip his clothes. He looked up, rested his head in the crook of his neck, and said in a small voice, “I know…”

His eyelashes lowered. “I don’t care what others think… I just care about you.”

He was afraid that he wouldn’t accept him, that he would be disgusted.

He was afraid that they would… drift further and further apart.

Hearing this, Lu Ze pulled away from him and held his face with both hands. “If you really want to put it that way, then I’m the one who should be worried.”

Xu Qingyan blinked in a daze.

Lu Ze couldn’t help but look up and plant a kiss on his eyelashes. Feeling his trembling, he said softly, “After all, I was the one who liked you first, and I was the one who tried my best to seduce you.”

“Baby, it should be me who is terrified, me who is worried about gains and losses.”

Xu Qingyan looked up in surprise, his gaze trembling. “What… seduction?”

Lu Ze asked back, “What do you think?”

He stroked Xu Qingyan’s hair, held the side of his face, and said with a bitter smile, “Baby, not all life-saving benefactors can make me so attentive.”

“Accompanying you home, helping you with your homework, bringing you food, and explaining questions to you, this is not me being a good person, nor is it a brother taking care of a younger brother.” He looked at Xu Qingyan, his expression serious and with a deep and gentle affection. “It’s because I like you that I’m willing to do this.”

Xu Qingyan was a little surprised for a moment, and for a moment, he didn’t dare to look at his scorching gaze. His lips opened and closed for a long time before he said, “When did you…” The next few words were indistinct, and Xu Qingyan seemed a little embarrassed.

Lu Ze thought for a moment. “A long time ago.”

“Maybe it was the first time you cooked, or maybe it was on our first trip to the city, or maybe it was when I took you to catch fish…”

From a long time ago, his gaze had unconsciously been on Xu Qingyan.

Xu Qingyan’s cheeks couldn’t help but turn a little red. His eyes wandered for a long time before he stammered in a low voice, “Then… then you didn’t even let me in your house at that time, and you even complained that my legs were short…”

He accused him one by one. Hearing this, Lu Ze only felt that the pits he had dug before had finally buried himself.

“I was wrong,” he said decisively. “Just think of me as being insensible at that time.”

He said, “At that time… I probably hadn’t realized my feelings for you, otherwise I wouldn’t have arranged a dormitory for you.”

Hearing this, Xu Qingyan realized what he was thinking and looked up at him. “So every time you asked me to go to your house, you had ulterior motives?”

“What can I do?” Lu Ze held his waist and said with a bitter smile, “It’s my own fault for being so stupid before. I have to find all kinds of excuses just to spend more time with you.”

Xu Qingyan pursed his lips and didn’t speak. Lu Ze rubbed his forehead. “Qingyan, Yanyan, are you not angry anymore?”

“I’m not angry,” Xu Qingyan muttered in a small voice, slightly averting his gaze, and said in a barely audible voice, “Then… do you still think my legs are short now?”

For some reason, Xu Qingyan… really cared about how he looked in Lu Ze’s eyes.

Perhaps it was not without reason. People in love always care about their image in the other person’s eyes, don’t they?

Lu Ze paused, then said, “It’s not that I think your legs are short, it’s that I think you’re still too young, and you’re still growing…”

Xu Qingyan nodded. “So you’re saying I’m short.”

He thought for a moment, then said, “And you also think I’m thin.”

Lu Ze was at a loss for words for a moment. He was silent for a moment, then said, “It’s not that I’m disgusted, it’s that I feel sorry for you.”

Xu Qingyan looked up at him.

Lu Ze pulled him into his arms. “I was thinking, if we had met you earlier, maybe you wouldn’t have had to suffer so much.”

Xu Qingyan was silent for a moment.

Lu Ze said, “Then you should be studying your books in school without a care in the world right now, and the only thing you have to consider is the college entrance examination in half a year. You would have many friends, you would be very popular, and maybe you would also have many girls pursuing you.” He held his hand and looked at the thick calluses on his hands. “I would have raised you to be tall and fair, healthy and strong, without having to bear the burden of life so early.”

Xu Qingyan gripped his lapels and, after a long silence, slowly opened his mouth, “But I think it’s very good now.”

He looked up at Lu Ze, his clear eyes full of warmth and gentleness. “I think the timing of my meeting you was very good.”

“When I was not so childish, when I had a certain responsibility for my family and life, when I could clearly realize that I liked you.”

“There is no better time than now, Lu-ge.”

Lu Ze looked up at him and, after a long silence, leaned forward and planted a kiss on his lips. “I know, I understand.”

The hand on his waist tightened slightly, as if to melt him into his own bones and blood. “Everything will be fine in the future.”

Xu Qingyan gently pursed his lips, his eyes slightly curved, his expression shy and soft.

He imitated Lu Ze’s appearance, endured his shyness, and also kissed him on the lips, his eyes shining. “I know, Lu-ge is very good to me.”

He wrapped his arms around his neck, and his whole body slowly leaned against him, his cheek gently rubbing against the crook of his neck, like an obedient and soft cat.

Lu Ze held the back of his head with one hand, his five fingers running through his soft and fine hair, and just enjoyed this moment of silence.

The two were intimate for a long time before Lu Ze looked at his face and asked, “Have you not been resting well these past few days?”

There were dark circles under his eyes, and he didn’t look well when he was eating at noon.

Xu Qingyan hummed in a muffled voice. He hadn’t dared to let himself fall into a deep sleep recently, for fear of having that kind of unbearable dream again in his sleep.

Hearing this, Lu Ze couldn’t help but feel sorry for him. He got up and carried him horizontally, saying, “Then let’s sleep for a while first.”

Xu Qingyan was originally a little sleepy, but he didn’t expect Lu Ze to make such a move. He immediately clung to his neck in a panic. “Lu-ge—”

Before his voice fell, Lu Ze had already carried him to the door of the office’s lounge, kicked the door open, and inside was a not-so-large bed, which was more than enough for two people, and there was also a simple wardrobe around.

Xu Qingyan paused. Lu Ze had already placed him on the bed. He looked around. Lu Ze said, “The office has its own lounge. I had someone install a bed. When I’m tired, I can rest here for a while.”

He rubbed Xu Qingyan’s head. “You haven’t rested well recently. Take a nap at noon, and I’ll take you out to eat at night.”

He could also imagine that Xu Qingyan probably hadn’t eaten much recently.

Xu Qingyan blinked and looked at him for a moment, then let out a low “oh,” but he didn’t move.

Lu Ze asked him, “What’s wrong?”

Xu Qingyan hesitated for a while and said, “Lu-ge has also been quite busy recently. You were just sleeping on the sofa.”

Lu Ze looked down at him and let out a low hum.

Xu Qingyan’s hand slowly grabbed his sleeve, his gaze clear and pure. “Then you should also sleep for a while.”

Lu Ze was silent for a while, then said, “Okay.”

Xu Qingyan pursed his lips and smiled lightly. He saw Lu Ze very naturally take off his outer clothes and pants, and the close-fitting clothes made his shoulders look broad and his legs long, and the outline of the muscles in his waist and abdomen could be vaguely seen.

Only then did Xu Qingyan vaguely realize that something was wrong.

Lu Ze had already gotten into the bed and looked up at him with some confusion.

Xu Qingyan pursed his lips and suddenly realized that their relationship had also changed. Taking off clothes in front of each other and so on…

Xu Qingyan was a little shy in hindsight.

He fumbled to unbutton his clothes, but Lu Ze’s gaze was still fixed on him, which made him even more embarrassed.

After a moment of silence, he still said in a small voice, “Don’t look at me.”

Lu Ze couldn’t help but let out a low laugh and obediently averted his gaze. “Okay, I won’t look at you.”

He patted the other half of the bed. “Hurry up and get on. Let’s rest for a while.”

Only then did Xu Qingyan speed up. He took off his outer clothes, sat on the bed a little reservedly, lifted a corner of the blanket, and lay down with a somewhat stiff body.

The bed was a single bed, which was spacious enough for one person to sleep in, but it was inevitably a little crowded for two people.

Xu Qingyan wanted to keep his distance from Lu Ze, but the size of the bed was there, and the faint warmth from the man’s body beside him also made his heart beat a little faster, and his throat couldn’t help but move quietly.

He gripped the blanket. The corner of the blanket was originally tucked under his chin, but then it was slowly pulled up, gradually covering the tip of his nose, leaving only his eyes exposed.

And during this action, his arm inevitably moved, and he would always touch the person beside him on and off.

Xu Qingyan’s breathing couldn’t help but pause, and he quietly wanted to move towards the edge of the bed.

It wasn’t until his arm could already touch the outside of the bed that Xu Qingyan paused. Suddenly, a wave of heat came from his side. Before he could react, his waist was tightened, and the next moment, his whole person was pulled into a warm embrace.

Xu Qingyan’s body was a little stiff for a moment.

Lu Ze’s hand slid up from his waist, smoothed his back, and patted him gently. His deep voice was laced with a smile. “If you lean any further, you’ll fall off.”

Xu Qingyan slowly blinked and didn’t speak for a moment.

Lu Ze’s hand on his back used some force and held him a little tighter in his arms. His other hand brushed away the bangs on his forehead, lowered his head and planted a kiss on his forehead, and said in a low voice, “Don’t worry, I won’t touch you.”

He pressed his head against his chest, and the hand on his back patted him on and off. “Be good, sleep for a while first.”

His vision was dark, and at the tip of his nose was only the warm breath of the man, which had no particular smell, but was faint and reassuring.

Xu Qingyan unconsciously licked his lips. His hand, which had been stiff on the side, hesitated for a long time before he slowly placed it on the man’s waist.

Lu Ze’s voice was laced with a faint smile, and he coaxed him in a gentle voice, “Sleep…”

Xu Qingyan slowly closed his eyes.